it's difficult.

that is - playing in a band for a long time is difficult. when you start writing music when you're 18 you never think about the local trenches you'll endure just trying to get 15 people to come out to your shows. for some reason it seems like it should be easier.

i'm not complaining. or maybe i am, but not too much. i create stuff with my best friends. and most of it comes out pretty well.

we played a show 2 weeks ago i left the show thinking that no-one cared. and that's the sad part of life that everyone deals with sometimes. are the things we do significant.

today i was reading about hp lovecraft's life. i'm sad to say i've never read any of his works but any fan of modern sci-fi/horror will hear his name thrown around sometimes. anyway he died poor but he's one of the most influential writers of the 19th-20th century. it's the same for jane austen.

so i wrote a song called, "you'll be famous when you're dead" i can't wait to play it.